So when is Grace offered too much, when does it all run out? Is there some line that once crossed becomes and locked gate?

When I was writing about bitterness I felt line i was standing on a chalked line, like one made for some sporting event. I was standing on this line that was for some reason abnornally larger that any normal line. On either side I could see my heart. On that right side it was in an open field, completely naked, vonerably and seeminly alone. One the left side it was harder and tougher surrounded by copper wire fense with little hooks that would cut anything that dare breath on it. My fear was the right side had obivously been crapped on, kicked and just plain laughed at time and time again. The left side although unwelcoming, seems safe.

I have decided not to become bitter and to answer my own question there is never an end to grace as far as I am concerend. The end of grace is totally God's concern and I have no right to make that call.

Grace is really wierd somtimes to me. When I stop giving it out I have a harder and harder time recieving it for myself. I always kinda interpretted the bible as a bit of a consiqential book. Do this and this will happen Do that and that will happen. Fair enough? I always thought so. So when it says, "forgive me as I forgive others", I just took it as kinda of deal that God stuck up with mankind or somthing.

I wonder now if it might be a bit more. I can't recieve unless I am handing out, I cant give what I dont have either.  The more I hold onto my own judments and crap I put up this wall between me and Chrsit that slowly starts to cave in on me. I put wire fencing around my own heart thinking I'll everyone out, when also I keep myself locked in. The same standard I put on others heads I find crashing down on my own.