So I played my first "gig" with Audra. Good times, I enjoyed myself and remained real too. Good Times. It's the first time I ever played outside of church or church setting. People were really supportive and nice. I love how big God is, he's everywhere. I love that he isn't in a building, his spirit is in peoples. He kind of amazes me that way. If he were a business man on earth he would be the worst buisness man ever cause he gives away the most valuable "commodity" in the world away.....for FREE! Well he does say you have to lay your life down and that somtimes it's gonna be hard, yah know with prosecution and end of freshly ways and all but......still.... best deal ever!

I think I am starting to slowly understand how much bigger he is than me. I have a secret, I still like to have control. This past week and a half I realised I dont have much control over things that happen. A varriety of different things shook me up. There this part in Hebrews that says it good when we get shaken up a bit cause everything not of God falls off and only the things of him and his kingdom remain. This week I got shaken up, but I think it's ok. honestly I haven't totally regained my balance but I am ok with Him being in control. I dont have to be. Anyways maybe bed time?